The lamp glow settles on my father, etched
in browns and grays. He exhales, a nicotine
taint, and glances around.
He looks up, scratches his face, looks
down, closes the book. He leans back
and spills shadows up the wall, the oak 
chair whining. He notices me. 
I lay, PJed. Settled restless creature 
under flannel. My face not quite eclipsed, I sneak 
peeks back, encased in childhood.        
Brendan's sprawled near, eyes shut too
tightly. A faker. He listens motionlessly. His favorite
hand-me-down bares midriff.
Mom sneaks yawns off on the couch. A dog-eared 
Dean Koontz teepees her throat, rises and falls with slowing 
sinking breath. Her blinks elongate
 
as Jay Leno fades to a dull white roar   
the moment endures. 
Four people, being. Static potential. A house aflame
with the intricate mundane.
Dad breaks it, stands. He leans over and 
kisses me on the forehead.  His beard makes me
kick out the willies, 's' sounds on sheets 
cast in shade. He whispers “Goodnight” and
reaches for the lamp.
Darkness pours in with a click. 
I hear him rustle his way out. Cars 
whir outside. Headlights bathe his spine 
as he sinks from the room.
I lay there, my thoughts enjambed,
justified around a four-walled world. House creaks
and groans coo me. They seduce roots that 
ground me. Plant me at home years after the harvest.

 
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