Friday, June 26, 2009

Autophagy: Streetlights Are All I'll Ever Know


A final ebb and the sun trickles

over the horizon with Copernican

contempt. Light’s leash tightens

on its wayward pups, who cast

maniacal shadows behind their mother’s back;

the prodigal beasts

trail after her,


culled by necessity. A mongrel pitch

crawls from the east,

hounding street

to car

to sidewalk;

it lays its claim. The moon,

in its turn,

enlists shattered glass and

silver bike frames to fortify its glimmer.

It is to no avail. Pitch gains. The street lights

heed their cue. The monolith Cereus


vibrates havoc and unfurls

the dogs of bloom. Sepia tones sink

through the ether and

settle, molasses on the curb.

In anesthetic din I

hear the echo of a yelp

quelled in the half-step

between glimmer and illumination.

The iamb completed,

I set myself in burlap browns

and half-hearted grays of a front porch.

I flick flick flick ignite. It drags slow and

the fire stretches towards my lips,

taking well proportioned

crackle steps in quarter time.


Cars waft by,

headless specters that shear

the muted din with their

halogen staffs. They bathe me

in white incoherence. I reign

in the smoldering

of my cigarette.


These lights. These damn lights.

These humming muzzles

of progress. They hold the hounds. But my

monolith flickers,

at once the devils come. They

gnash and vomit acid and then they are gone,

before I even feel their swelter.

I know they

pace ‘round these holy spheres at night. They stay

alert, to harrow me from their hell.


I rustle my poise, shirk the dust. Flick my

smoke into the street; it shatters. Retreat. I dare

not look too hard. Think too long. Because

it studies me too. It knows where to tear

the nails from. I foxhole deep into hallow.

I close my eyes and mouth pacts,

thick silent woolly whispers that levee fortresses.


“May the sun retain us, though we’ve lost her sight.

May heaven be our roof, and the dirt floor our rock. And

may the dark clanging paths reck the rod of pied beauty.”


He Eyed the Storm


He strikes the table

above us. The dark cedar sky

trembles. I bite my lip. And taste

metal as burgundy pools in my jaw.


Stale light filters through the

table cloth. I barely

see Julia trembling next to me.

But I can hear her, the storm

rumbles that it can as well.


Again, lightning cracks

above us. The whiskey

dew drifts down,

spurning my nostrils. Her nails sink

into me.


Dad strikes again with a flash.

One Mississippi

Two Mississippi

"Get the fuck out here." he thunders;

it’s not far away now.


I stroke her hair. Softly back

and forth. I can see mom's

feet near the dishwasher. Silent

soap sobs encompassed in its

roar.


I slowly slip Julia's arm around

the table's base. She mouths

something, coughs

on a tear. I step out from the eye

of the storm, the lilac print brushing my

spine.


Stale light filters through the tablecloth.

Muddy boots. Tennis shoes.

High heels step, then hesitate

as the tennis shoes are ripped

from the floor of this world.


Your Verse Ain't So Free When I Feed It to Haikus


Leaves swirl chaotic,

a drifting descent down to

the ground. They shriek 'Ohm'


I set, encased in cool dark

folds. Sandalwood stains

my fingers and hovers, a din around

my wrists.


Ohm, what leaves learn as

they choke their throat holes in the

one way and unleash.


The prep kindles vodka palsey.

Stretch. I breath deep

and slow to silence sclerotic

nerves. I exhale a nicotine taint.


Be the tree, my leaf

so not even sinking can

touch you. What can sink?


I inhale sharp. My perception winces:

the moment between a skull rocked back

and the splash of gin, crashing recklessly

against the rising cliffs of my throat.


Be the ohm, my leaf.

Back at the campfire, the ash

of Bodhi Trees smoke.


I unfurl the subtle vibrato;

the ohm lingers, time-sliced pure potential

and settles, driving thick dark ripples

from its storm laced eye.


Giggles rise above racecar

shoes. Swing the me between

dad and grandpa. Ohm.


That's Brisk Baby!


your voice swells sweet, a bell,

yet a knell, that tolled me to

hell, I can't remember.

it seems so plain now, how

blazed hazed eyes

could’ve phased me.

they did.


crocodiles cry, sweeten the lie, it's

aspertame in lipton

tea, that's brisk, baby! brisk

walks we d take, harm in harm

I'd gloss the guilt you d fake,

try not to!


'twas there, wasn't it?

don’t care, do you?

enough to let

the truth be,

look! me

in the eye without

pity drops drip drops drop drips don’t slip

subtle speaks to change the tone,

you did this. alone.


and now

stale light casts

sheets of shade,

saran-wrapping me between smashed

photo frames. that was.

the permeatin' buzz of the TV fuzz

kindles a vodka palsy. I shake (not stir)

alone, perched on a

reclinin declinin throne...

cuckolded.